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[quote][b]Kat (Oct 24, 2001 07:41 a.m.):[/b] It was too much, too fast. She had dreamed of this moment for years, but she still could not believe it was true. She needed time to watch, to see, to convince herself through sight and sound and touch that he was real, that this was not the lie it had been so many times in her nightmares. Kat wanted so badly to love Mode that when he embraced her tightly and kissed her, she could not help but try to embrace him back. She didn't expect his touch to hurt. He tangled his fingers in her curls and slid his arm around her waist, and she was frightened. Then his lips were on hers, forcing them apart as he kissed her roughly, and for the first time since Asmodeus had been destroyed, Kat was scared of Mode. Her eyes snapped open, wide with disbelief, and without much thought she curled her nails into the back of his neck, struggling for freedom. When he pulled away but kept his hold on her, pressing his lips to her throat, Kat started to shake and could not stop the whimper that tore itself free. [i]Why does this hurt...[/i] There had always been rougher touches, rougher caresses. Mode had made her bleed and bruise countless times before, but this was different. This wasn't supposed to be like that. This wasn't... Her attempt at suicide and subsequent withdrawal from life had given Kat the ability to survive without emotion, but having her love and pain exposed like this to him made her shy, made her soul feel raw and her heart like a wound, and she gasped and whimpered again and finally broke free from his grasp. They were just inches apart as he kneeled now on her bed, and she curled against the wall. His face was resigned, but there was fear in his eyes that mirrored her own, and seeing that hurt as much as his kiss. He shouldn't be afraid. He loved her, and she loved him, and as she watched him, she knew he hadn't intended to cause her pain. He just wanted reassurance, like she did, just needed to know that years apart had not broken their love, like she needed to know, and right at this moment, when they both needed one another so badly, she could not bring herself to touch him. "Mode..." she whispered again, to feel his name on her lips. "I..." [i]I'm sorry, my love, so sorry...[/i] She slapped him across the face. His head turned to the side, and she gasped in shock at what she had done. She hadn't meant to do that... and then she was finding it hard to breathe, hard to see. Black teased the edges of her vision, and she keeled over, burying her face into her hands as the words poured out without any guidance. "I hate you, I hate you," her voice was low and tortured and heavy. "I thought you were gone, I thought you were dead... you left me... I wanted to die, why wouldn't you let me die, Mode...?" She raised her head, and her gaze was full of anguish. "Why?!" The love in his eyes was answer enough for her, and Kat shrieked. "DON'T YOU EVER LEAVE ME!" The next instant she wrapped herself around him, clutching desperately at his back, her little hands clenched tightly into the material of his uniform. She was shaking, because he was here and she could have him again after so many years of waiting. He held her, and she sobbed without tears, and then she tried to kiss him, because it was the only thing she could think to do. It was still rough this time, but she needed it. She needed his pain to know it was alright.[/quote]
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